Sunday, September 30, 2007
Thursday, September 27, 2007
1. Cleaning vomit off of the floor in the meat department of Kroger, fast and feverishly, as people steered their carts quickly in the other direction.
2. Cleaning vomit off of the sink in Kroger.
3. Staring at vomit clumps in the sink and wondering what in the world to do? My children have never vomitted in public!
4. Watching Lydie bug vomit for the first time. The poor sweetheart looked confused and beside herself with fear.
5. And the lowest point, which you shouldn't read if you are weak in the stomach or not a mom, is when I stared back into the sink and did what any panic-stricken mom would do in such a situation, I used my BARE hands and shoved those little clumps down the drain. Then I scoured the sink with paper towels and soap. Then I scoured my hands and her hands, legs and face with soap and paper towels. Then I stripped her down to her diaper. Then I left. Then she threw up in the carpool line...
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
This morning I woke up feeling this morose lonliness. After dropping Jaybird off in carpool, I decided to head north to the outlet malls to make some exchanges. The outlet malls are an hour away, and Jaybird is only in school 3 hours, 15 minutes. As irrational as a trip this far away during our time frame seemed, I needed the quiet time in the car, so I popped in a Baby Einstein movie and we were on our way.
The car ride was quiet and beautiful. As I sulked and prayed, God tenderly revealed the paradox of my own heart. I realized that my "lonely funks" are almost always paralleled with an absence of time with God. I felt like the Lord allowed me to feel this way because He wanted to reveal His own desire that I spend time with Him. When I don't have time with my closest friends, particularly my husband, I quickly feel disconnected and eventually neglected and sad. Although I am not foolish enough to think that my absence causes God to be lonely, I do know that He laments my spiritual independence and it saddens Him. So many stories in the Bible reveal this aspect of His character. For example, in the story of Noah and the flood, Genesis says that no one revered God and He was grieved that He made man. Of course, this is only one example of this theme that runs through out the Bible. The Bible, after all, is the beautiful love story of God and His bride and that He gave His life for Her in the midst of her "spiritual adultery".
As my ride came to an end, I had travelled the spectrum from self-pity to conviction. And as I remembered that there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ, the conviction gently and lovingly lead to repentance by the Spirit. Once again, the Lord graciously drew me back into His arms and away from myself. If I've said it once, I've said it a million times...His grace really is amazing.
"But God proved His love for us in that while we still were sinners Christ died for us."
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
(Trying hard to honor the promise to my man not to post pics of the kids. This doesn't count, does it? I figure I can creatively find pictures of them that don't reveal their faces!)
Sunday, September 23, 2007
Thursday, September 20, 2007
Here's a few...
and the others...
One up close...And the back. Now, I guess I need to move on to more important things like a birthday cake and food. :)
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
This picture probably captures the blue paint most accurately. It has a good bit of grey in its tone. My precious man painted the room for me as an anniversary present. The curtains are new as well. (Target) This is the little spot in our little room where I blog.
This is a better picture of my new bed! I spent almost 1/2 of my paycheck from this summer. (I wrote 7 science units for Jaybird's school. ) It felt very odd spending around $500, a BIG splurge for me. But God gave Andy and me a perfect peace about this purchase. One week later we saw God's hand. We had a teacher from Jaybird's school in desperate need for furniture for a loved one. We were able to give her our old bedroom set. We had a good cry together over God's providence.
This chest-of-drawers is the only piece of furniture in our bedroom that holds clothing. I bought lots of metal shelving and plastic storage for our walk-in closet. Most of our clothes are in there now. We have always wanted a sleigh bed and the space was an easy trade for the opportunity to buy quality furniture first hand.Our bedroom door used to have furniture behind it. You could only open the door half way. LOVE the open space.
These pictures are not very clear (as usual I waited until after dark to take pictures and the lighting is not good). But this is a repainted end table. These lamps are not new, but I do love them. They are probably the only thing from our bedroom that I liked. The lamps are polished silver and the shades have big polka dots.
That's all so far! I have an oil painting that needs to be stretched into a frame. (Has any one done this before? I am thinking of giving it a try. It costs $60 at Michael's with a coupon. How hard could it be? We have a staple gun and cardboard. Am I being naive here?) And I need to hang curtains on the other window. Then voile, project complete.
This picture is so blurry. Sorry! I drew on a piece of paper my idea for the monogrammer. I will drop it off tomorrow and have the black dots monogrammed in a circle with her initials (which of course are not AAA) monogrammed in red. I am excited to see the finished product. If any one likes to sew and would like to make a pillow case dress, let me know and I will post instructions.
Monday, September 17, 2007
And sometimes the only way to receive grace, and to really understand what you're accepting (that you are responsible for exactly 0% of what God fully accomplished in saving you), is to be broken. Broken enough that you can't hold onto anything except Jesus' hand when He stretches it out.This season has broken me. It breaks me daily. Someone recently told me that going through an experience like this will leave you with a "limp" - that I can expect to never feel totally "put together" again. They weren't referring to emotions, I don't think. They didn't mean I'd be a constant wreck for years to come. I think they simply meant that the Lord will allow me to incur a wound that, while He may heal it, will leave a scar I will never be able to forget - certainly not cover up. I know the Father uses the weak; the stories of Jesus healing the crippled in the New Testament reveal, over and over again, God's heart for the lame. Irregardless, I don't want to be included in that demographic; I'd rather be 'whole' in the eyes of the world, whole by the standards that I know to be real here in this life. And so Jesus understood - knew from the beginning of time - that I'd need to be reminded that in my weakness, He is made strong. It is in the things the world calls foolish and insignificant that He reveals His glory. May His strength swallow up my frailty, His joy my sorrow.
Thursday, September 13, 2007
I spent $140 at the preview consignment sale. I bought more than I planned (only planned on spending $100), but I am happy with my stash. Almost all of the clothing is Talbots, Gap, Gymboree, Old Navy or Children's Place. My most expensive item was $6.00, but most were around $3.00. Have I sold you on consignment sales yet? :)
Monday, September 10, 2007
Thursday, September 06, 2007
Ya'll, if you have the chance to own a pool, give it a whirl! The previous owner installed ours. It added no value to the house. We paid the exact same amount for our house as any other house this size without a pool. It costs $600-$700 a year to maintain. But we just opt out of pool membership with the neighborhood and are not at a loss. We saved at least $300 in free entertainment for parties in the past year with our pool.
My parents gave this trampoline to the boys as a joint birthday present. I LOVE it! We played together on it for an hour today. Aerobic exercise today? Check!
Our balance beam.
The view from the trampoline to the house. The trampoline is in the bottom corner of the fenced area of the yard. The unfenced area has a little creek that I was too lazy to photograph. See our little white house in the upper left corner? And the boys still play on the swing set every day. They still love to swing and slide. Does that every get old?
And that's where the kids get their daily work outs. No fancy equipment, no fitness awards, but we have so much fun!
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
The first week, we eased in to each subject. Beginning week 2 we studied math, reading, writing, phonics and our unit study. (We do our devotion and memory at breakfast with #1.) I am about to post a ton of pictures, but we honestly did not spend over 1 hour, 15 minutes on 3 days a week doing school work. It's amazing what can be accomplished one-on-one! Here is what we are using for the main subjects:
We are reviewing phonics with Phonics Pathways. I always add in games, I get easily bored with most reading/phonics curriculums. And I didn't use a really creative one like Veritas Press' Phonics Museum, which is incredible, because I only wanted to have a 20 minute dose a day. The letters in the bag we used this week for an alphabet soup game.
We used this poster and bookworm game to review reading three letter words. We have also read many of the Abeka "I Can Read" readers and Bob books.
To practice fine motor skills, he has around 20 minutes at the beginning of our lessons to play with things like this:
Our first unit was on the farm. I bought these five books for our home library from Amazon. They are paper back and I paid $5-$6 a piece for them, including shipping. Books are always worth the investment for me. My favorite was Have You Seen My Duckling?. By the end of the book we had to run down to Daddy's office and ask him for his bird guide to determine two of the birds in the book. This book has very few words, you and your little ones can basically create the story as you go along. I LOVE books like this! I tried to stick to one book each day that covered a specific farm animal, and then follow up with a craft. Here is what we read:
Here are our art projects: Toot built a barn out of blocks
I printed the pig from the internet. He cut, colored and painted mud.
He drew a duck, lilly pad and nest and added a feather.
He did a chalk drawing of a pig and clouds.
For the cows, we looked on the computer at these websites: http://www.kidsfarm.com/whatcowssay.htm
We also, did a drawing each day. He drew himself, a flower, and an elephant. He narrated a three sentence story for each one. He is learning the beginning stages of creative writing: to identify the beginning, middle and end of a story.
Tomorrow we are wrapping up our farm study with a trip to a real dairy farm. We will get to see the farmers and machines milk cows, watch the sheep dogs herd the cows, see their stalls, and see the process of the milk being pasturized and sent to the dairy. I think the book Milk Makers pictured above was a perfect preparation. We will also see many other farm animals. And the baby will be home, so it will be a rare day of giving Toot my undivided attention. I am very excited! I would highly recommend this unit to you if you are homeschooling 4-7 year olds. Think you know all their is to know about the farm? I learned a lot! It was fun!
Sunday, September 02, 2007
This sermon has prompted me to search my own heart for materialism and to look at money differently. Maybe I'll write more as God leads...