I do not like confrontation and that is why this has been a doozy of a week for me emotionally. God has been prompting me to speak-up in situations that make me very uncomfortable. For example, I mentioned a while back that many marriages around us are crumbling. I think I specifically spoke of my dismay over our RUF (college ministry) pastor's problems. When I found out last week that he was being excommunicated I was so heart broken. Sad for him, sad for his family, sad that Satan is winning the battle for his marriage. So, after feeling an overwhelming obligation, I wrote him a letter. I basically begged and pleaded with him to turn away from his sin. Have you ever felt like God was telling you to do this for someone in crisis? If not, take it from me, it is difficult and uncomfortable. It is always hard to talk about someone else's sin. After all, I am well aware of my own and I do not want to sound judgemental. But I kept thinking about exhortation and God's great provision through it. And I kept thinking about how the universe was created by God through mere words, so why couldn't he change a life, a heart, through using my mere words? If nothing else, I decided it was important to obey God.
Well, I am not sure that my letter was received with love or appreciation. I got a one sentence response. That's never good. I was so tempted to lay awake last night and mull over in my mind what this man must be thinking about me now. I had to force myself to trust the Lord. Not everything He asks me to do will benefit my reputation, it will often likely do the opposite with certain people. The gospel is offensive! I pray that as I get older that my walk with the Lord will mature and I can put aside myself easier. What is the Bible verse about "unless a seed dies, it can not fall to the ground and produce fruit"? My friend quoted that verse to me today. I want to see fruit in my life and others, but, just as God promised after the fall, life is full of thorns and weeds.
I think the lesson I have learned from all of this is to trust and obey, each day. To not let the busyness of this life sweep away the reason that I am here. To not lose sight of Jesus and His great sacrifice. Because I am seeing the speed at which Satan works when we take our eyes off of Jesus. As the Bible says, He is "a crouching lion looking for someone to devour"!