i HATE it!

"Drink from your own cistern, flowing water from your own well. Should your springs be scattered abroad, streams of water in the streets? Let them be for yourself alone, and not for sharing with strangers. Let your fountain be blessed, and rejoice in the wife of your youth, a lovely deer, a graceful doe. May her breasts satisfy you at all times; may you be intoxicated always by her love. Why should you be intoxicated, my son, by another woman and embrace the bosom of an adulteress? For human ways are under the eyes of the Lord, and He examines all their paths. The iniquities of the wicked ensnare them, and they are caught in the toils of their sin. They die for lack of discipline, and because of their great folly they are lost."

Proverbs 5:15-23

I am so angry tonight. I have just heard of another marriage destroyed by the Enemy through the avenue of po*nography. I am sickened and so tired of it! As some may know from this post, our marriage has not been without valleys. And it's only by the grace of God that I enjoy a wonderful marriage now. I think that's why I feel such deep down sadness when I hear of another Christian marriage ending in divorce. I have had the experience of what the Psalm means when it states, "Taste and see that the Lord is good, blessed is the man who takes refuge in him." My soul can rejoice in knowing that the gospel is TRUE! But I see some people not experiencing this in their own valleys and I am heart broken.

The story that I am currently refering to is a friend from college. Her husband was (until the recent turn of events) an elder in his church. He and his wife have two children. Any way, long story short. He was caught looking at por*ography. It turns out that this "secret" had caused him to be very distant over the past few years, both physically and emotionally. (I have discovered through experience and the testimonies of other couples that mens' isolation is often blamed on work load or some other believable excuse. Quite often men who are emotionally distant are hiding something and feeling guilty and fearful of being exposed.) After finding out about her husband's dark, unbelievable secret she had an affair. They got separated and recently divorced. Last weekend instead of coming to her niece's baptism, she went to Hawaii with her boyfriend (the man she had the affair with). She returned with a new wedding ring.

Sounds like a soap opera! It breaks my heart. I hate pornography and I hate that so many men are being seduced by it. I am at a loss for words.