Wednesday, October 12, 2011

New battle cry

This past weekend I enjoyed more solitude than the past six months altogether! I was longing for some moments alone, with God, and with my sweet friends. So this conference in Atlanta could not have come about at a better time. I asked Andy if I could go a month or so ago, which he, of course, encouraged me to do. And later, after paying a heaping $170 for the conference alone, he asked, "So who are the speakers? What will you be studying?" I had no idea. I just signed up, no questions asked. This Mom needed a respite (and no price tag could be put on it)!


But God in His great goodness blessed me beyond what I could have anticipated from a website. Nancy Guthrie was the main speaker and she took the word of God and unfolded it for us in such a poetic, beautiful, heart-felt way. My seminars were wonderful, too. And what an experience it was to sing to the Lord with 2,000 other joyful women! I left feeling reminded of the great honor it is to be a Jesus-follower in such a time and place as this.

Getting ready to hit the road!

Besides a great conference, in my quick, 48 hour stay I enjoyed several meals with friends. (These are always fun when I am visiting from out of town. No fluffy chit-chat. We get down to business and no one holds back! I love it.) I also had the great pleasure of worshiping with our church body in Atlanta. It is pure joy to see our "family" there. I had a quick visit to the urgent care, but it didn't put much of a ripple in my plans. While I was getting over that issue, I read 4 magazines cover-to-cover in my best friend's guest room and then took a 3 hour, uninterrupted nap. Now that's a way to spend an afternoon! It took me until about Monday evening to shake off the blues. After all, it might not ever be easy to visit a place with such sweet memories. But I was reminded of what Ruth Graham's daughter said of her, and greatly inspired. She said, "I now understand that her joy did not stem from perfect or ideal circumstances, but from a deep, abiding faith." That type of joy, that dependency on my Saviour is what I long for more than any person or place. Stripes seem to be the rage! (Note my shirt from the picture above...another striped shirt!)


So yesterday when we took the day off of school to have some fun together (our first day off this year!), I knew how I should use my travel time. We decided to go shopping in Auburn. We were in the car about two and a half hours round trip. So I let my dreams fly. I let myself really envision how God could use me in bigger ways here. I imagined making art and jewelry, establishing a non-profit, having a "food barn" for the many unemployed in our county (canned & non-perishables from churches in surrounding counties and produce from the farm), and even the possibility of a classical school out here in the country (or at least tutoring services). It was fun and I got excited because I was reminded that I am here because of God, for His glory. Slowly, slowly I am moving forward, by His grace, and I have great hope that He is going to use me.

Enjoying the sales at Old Navy!


The kids at the book store...adding to their Christmas wish lists!


Sweet, goofy boys across the booth in Ruby Tuesday's.

In a book I read with the boys this morning, Abe Lincoln had to fire a Union general who was not getting the job done. He said (paraphrasing), "I might be a slow walker. But I will not walk backwards." Amen, Abe. I think I will adopt this phrase as my new battle cry.

Tuesday, October 04, 2011

Bearing His Image through Art

When Jackson was born (11 years ago!), and even two years after that when Josh came along, I was completely entrenched in being a Mom. I wore no other hats. Jack had some health problems that required daily therapy at home for an hour or two, maybe longer, along with regular visits to specialists. To enhance what we were working on with him, we took gym classes, music classes, joined a playgroup, went to story time at the library, and no telling what else. Basically, all I did 24/7 was plan, pray, or attend things for Jack. Or at least it felt that way. I have no regrets. God graciously has allowed our son to be healthy and happy, leaving behind the days of therapy and medical issues. But it was all-consuming those first years of parenting, that's for sure.In the mean time, my husband was building his career as an environmental consultant. He was part owner/VP in his company, and those responsibilities coupled with his undying ambition and 1 hour commute each way to work left most, well...all, of the parental responsibilities for me. That's how life was for about four years. Did I mention we were renovating our house on the weekends?It took me a while to realize that God had called me to do more with the next couple of decades of my life than be just Mom and wife. All throughout adulthood I had many friends. But since Jack was born I hadn't many hobbies, service, or even a whole lot of thinking outside of what involved my husband and children. I don't regret or feel guilty about it. Some doctors attribute Jack's recovery to those hundreds of hours I spent researching, planning, and working with him. I feel honored that God chose to use me as a help in Jack's life during those years.How could I regret that? But by the time things slowed down I realized that I had no idea how to spend a day alone with myself. If I had a penny to throw in a fountain I would have no idea what to wish for. I had two healthy boys, what now? It had been a long time since I had the luxury of time and solitude. The year the boys were 4 and 2 was 2004. It was the easiest year I have ever had as a parent. We lived in a new house that was easy to maintain. Andy didn't have to commute to work any more, and he wasn't doing house projects over the weekends. We had many friends at church and in our neighborhood. And everything was convenient to our house. That year was the only year in the past eleven years that I had regular time alone. The boys both went to preschool three mornings a week. After lunch they went down for a nap together and slept for three hours. Without fail. Did I mention that Joshua was THE EASIEST child on earth? Give him cars and trains and you could clean the entire house without a peep from him. And the boys played very, very well together. They remind me of Phineas and Ferb, if you've seen the cartoon. One was the talker/leader/mastermind of ideas and the other could build/engineer. They were both even-tempered and gentle. Our house was relatively quiet and predictable. That was an easy year.That year I began to remember all of the things I loved to do as an individual. I even discovered things I never knew about myself. I experimented with painting, photography, decorating, and other craft projects. I dusted off the sewing machine, began to write, and hosted people in our home on a weekly basis. I began to keep a journal. I began to volunteer with Women's ministry and host studies and prayer groups of women in our home. I discovered I enjoy reading about history and taking road trips. It was a life-changing year for me.
I haven't been the same since that year. There is always a yearning to create, find an adventure away from home, and capture things with words, paint, a camera. All of these pursuits allow me to see God more clearly. It's such a privilege to interact with his world in an intellectual, artistic way. It leads to worship and joy. I am a better Mom and wife when I have these opportunities for artistic expression and solitude. I know some seasons allow more of this type of learning than others. And I am okay with that. I just do not want these experiences to die altogether again. This time is such an enriching part of walking with Christ as an image-bearer. And, I hope it always remains a top priority for me to encourage this type of expression in my children as well.
"The longer I live the more beautiful life becomes. If you foolishly ignore beauty, you will soon find yourself without it. Your life will be impoverished. But if you invest in beauty, it will remain with you all the days of your life."~Frank Lloyd Wright






*Pictured above: Signs of fall around the house. What an inspiring season! These pictures are tiny because I sent them from my Ipad which is still a complete mystery to me!!

Monday, October 03, 2011

Lydie at 5

::Favorite toys::
Barbie doll and mansion
Stuffed animals
Dressing up

::What you want to be when you grow up::
A cheerleader
An artist
Own a store with Mommy
A Mommy

::Your favorite food/drinks::
Chocolate
Chocolate chip muffins
Waffles
Carrots
Cucumbers
Grapes
Canteloupe
Milk
Water (!)
Doritos chips
Cheese

::You love::
Being with family
Wearing skirts and dresses
Going to plays and museums
Drawing and crafting
Colorful rooms
Flowers
Being in the water
Riding your bike
Lip gloss
Ballet and gymnastic class (you count down the days...)
Getting your nails painted
Riding on Daddy's back
Being picked up and kissed
Shopping
School time
Pink

::You dislike::
Bugs, even the smallest ones
Spiders
Worms and slugs
Snakes
When I go somewhere without you
When Daddy goes somewhere without you
When your brothers go somewhere without you :)

::Your favorite time in kindergarten::
Art time
Everything really, except...

::Your least favorite time in school::
Your phonics lesson (it's 6 laborious pages long, no wonder!)

::You are::
always smiling
always giggling
always at your art table making something
very creative
always pretending with a doll or stuffed animal
always changing things around in your room
always changing your outfit
opinionated
spunky
affectionate
outspoken, yet nervous to be the center of attention
our precious gift

Saturday, October 01, 2011

Our Getaway

Last Friday we decided to tag along with Andy on an out of town consulting job. With harvesting season behind us, Andy is able to be involved in many environmental consulting projects. It is such a financial blessing for our family! Our decision to come with him on this trip was very last minute because I wasn't sure if I wanted to leave Mom just a few days after surgery. But once she was home and settled we talked about it. My parents encouraged me to go, as they don't like it when I am at the farm alone. So, reluctantly, the kids and I packed up and headed for North Carolina.
By Friday evening we were on our sweet Aunt Glenna's porch breathing in the cool mountain air of Asheville. I felt not-up-to-par all day Saturday, a mixture of dieting, stress, and fighting a virus. But I still thoroughly enjoyed our day at our favorite spot. What could be more beautiful than a farm nestled in the Appalachians?
On Sunday we headed south to another job site. Good bye mountains, hello ocean! We spent three restful days in Charleston, South Carolina. If you haven't seen this magnificent city, it is a balmy, coastal town filled with beautiful beaches and oak trees overflowing with Spanish moss. Not to mention the captivating "Carolina Blue" skies. Here is how we were greeted by the city:I loved our time together. We did school in the mornings in the hotel room. Then we were off looking for fun and adventure. We spent a day at Folly Beach... My Josh doesn't like to be bothered with any one else. It's him and the ocean. He's fearless out there in the water.





*Jackson later told me, "Mom, I have always loved Lydie. But today she became my friend." Gush.*

Sometimes I catch moments like the one below. Joshua stops all the swimming and jumping over waves to just take it all in. It's pretty awesome, right buddy?


We walked the streets of Charleston reading plaques and soaking up the rich history and architecture of the city...




And we played at the Children's Museum.

I needed this trip more than I could have known. I feel so refreshed and encouraged. It is good to experience a very special perk of this homeschooling way of life. These road trips, I am sure, will be memories we really treasure as a family in years to come. It felt exciting and adventurous to take off across 5 states and see new places, all while not missing a beat in our schoolwork. This is the freedom I hope to remember on busy days when there is too much to juggle! I am already looking forward to the next road trip.

"The chief aim of the Christian order is to give room for all good things to run wild."
-G. K. Chesterton

Friday, September 30, 2011

Mom, the trouper

On September 20th Mom had her double mastectomy. The long and short of it is, it went off without a hitch. It all happened so fast, really. My Mom was the biggest trouper I have ever seen. She focused on shopping for pajamas, thinking ahead (even talking about Christmas presents), and future treatment plans. She didn't get upset at all. She was so sweet as she was waking up from surgery, requesting a kiss on the cheek from everyone in the room.




Her surgery was 9 days ago and she has had very little pain. She is healing beautifully and the first steps were taken during surgery for reconstruction. She has seen the surgery site and said, "It didn't look as bad as I thought it would." I was afraid it would be a set back to see that area. But she seems to have no remorse over her loss at all. She just wants to get rid of the cancer. Probably a perk of having 68 years of life experience. Her attitude has been so graceful. She did have the lymph nodes removed on one side. But the pathology report came back with no signs of cancer left in her body. They gave her a 94% chance of full recovery and no relapse. I have been told those odds are very, very good.

I know the six rounds of chemo and the other steps for reconstruction will be difficult. We are not completely oblivious to what is down the road. But I am grateful for how well she is doing today. Thank you, dear friends, for praying. Honestly, I think the week before the surgery was more difficult for me than for her! On the way home from Birmingham the night before her big day I saw this beautiful sunset (at the gas station).
I was so overwhelmed with the cancer that I kept asking Jesus to just ride in behind the clouds and rescue me from all this brokenness. I was SO, SO ready for Him to come back right then and take us all Home. But that wasn't the day. And so we woke up and faced the music, and it was good. And tomorrow will be another day. And we all survived. And I am reminded again that no matter what the suffering or trial for this season of life might be, with Jesus there is always, ALWAYS something amazing to look forward to!


"Gratitude never comes from avoiding difficulty, but from finding yourself sustained through it. The degree of joy rises from the degree of gratitude, and the level of gratitude corresponds to the level of God's grace experienced in our suffering. God's sustaining providence brings relief, even when life becomes unspeakably difficult."

~Randy Alcorn

Sunday, September 18, 2011

Celebrating our girl

Lydie turned 5 on the 21st. On the 17th we celebrated at the mall. We invited her sweet girl cousins to the Build-A-Bear Workshop. And afterwards, we met the rest of the family in the food court for pizza and cake. Every year I either make or buy Lydie a dress for her birthday. This year I didn't have time to make one. We actually found this outfit at the consignment store. I appliqued the shirt with scraps of fabric I already had. The skirt was $12 and the shirt was $11. The pigtails are my {FAVORITE} hairstyle on her right now. She just happened to have those brown shoes with a matching pink flower on them. (Hand me down from a friend.) Love it when it all comes together like that!

We set up for lunch in the mall of the food court. Lydie and I wanted pink and polka dots for our theme. I used mostly stuff around the house. Tissue paper (pom poms), scrapbook paper and a kabob stick (sign), and left-over shredded paper for confetti. She is a girl who loves all the little details.
Andy and I did our best to make exactly what Lydie wanted for her cake this year: "a very chocolate-y ballerina bear". Although this cake required less creativity (we just followed the instructions on the cake pan), this cake took a longer amount of time to make! But she squealed when she saw it, which made it well worth the effort, of course.

I try to always incorporate something little from my Nana at her parties. (Nana was Lydie's namesake.) This year I used her old milk bottle to hold Lydie's sign.

Our party favor bags probably do not get rave reviews by our attendees. Let's just say they are "cost efficient". We let the birthday child pick their three favorite foods for the bags. Lydie chose all chocolate (m&m, Hershey bar, Hershey kisses)!

Daddy's girl was getting excited and ready for her cousins to arrive!


We all enjoy this little one SO much! I just wanted to pull her away and hug and kiss her all day!

The employee who hosted the party was really entertaining. I think the girls had fun!

Look at my darling nieces!!

Meanwhile, the boys went to the Lego and football store. Thanks, Uncle Ben, for entertaining them! (Sorry slacker Uncle Rick flaked out and went to Starbucks! haha)

Nana and Poppy were there. Nana even made her own bunny. We missed Mimi and Papa! So glad they are on the mend after being sick for so long!

My two beautiful sister-in-laws. Love that we are all raising our kids together! They are both awesome wives and Moms!

Andy and his brother Ben. (You can tell by my family's wardrobe that it was game day for Auburn!)


I wonder what my five year old girl wished for?


Greyce and Lydie- two peas in a pod.

Fun was had by all. In six short weeks we threw all three children their own birthday party. Gonna hang my party hat up for a while! :)